Anthu ambiri ndi osiyana-siyana - amakonda ndipo amatha kufotokoza pafupifupi chirichonse. Zochitika zilizonse, mavuto alionse angakhale "kuvala masamulovu." Pali zifukwa zingapo zofotokozera mu dziko la anthu. Zimakhala zosavuta kudziwa pamene, poyankha nkhani yanu kapena kudandaula, interlocutor imati: "chifukwa ..." kapena: "Ndinakuchenjezani ..." Ndipo, ngakhale kuti kufotokozera kawirikawiri sikupereka mwayi wotsogolera zam'mbuyo, anthu amawagwira, monga mzere wa moyo. Mmodzi wa mabwalo amenewa akuti "mavuto a zaka za pakati". Ndipo, poyandikira zaka makumi anayi, ambiri akuwoneka mwachangu akusowa maluso awo osambira ndikusowa thandizo. Ndili vuto la zaka 40 lomwe limafotokoza za "ndevu zakuda", ndipo atatha kukhala wosangalala - "mu 45 berry baba kachiwiri." Kapena osati mabulosi - ngati simunapirire vutoli. Kodi chikuchitika ndi chiyani pa nthawiyi? Ndipo ambiri: vuto la pakati pa moyo - nthano kapena zenizeni? Ndipo zomwe zimachitika zimakhudza bwanji banja? Za izi ndikuyankhula.
Anatoly ankakhala ndi mkazi wake zaka 24. Chirichonse, iye anati, chinali ngati wina aliyense - anagwira ntchito mwakhama, anayesera, anala ana - mwana wamwamuna ndi wamkazi. Anawo adakula, mwanayo adamaliza sukuluyo ndikuchoka, mwana wake wamkazi adayenera kuphunzira kwa zaka ziwiri, koma Anatoly samamuwona: abwenzi - abwenzi - ntchito ndi nyumba yake. Mkazi wanga ali pano. Anatoly akuusa moyo kwambiri - mkazi wabwino, wanzeru, wokondweretsa. Iye wapanga ntchito ngati mkulu woweruza, ndipo ali pafupi kwambiri kunyumba. Poyambirira, pamene ana anali aang'ono, sizinali zoonekeratu. Koma anawo akulira, Anatoly sanakhale ndi ntchito zaka zaposachedwapa. Anabwera kunyumba, koma mkazi wake kapena sanafike, kapena anali atagona kale. Ndipo ngati amakumana ku khitchini, ndiye kuti akukhala pafupi ndi nyumba. Mkazi yemwe anali ndi chingwechi anapitiriza kupatsa "antchito" antchito, anadya mofulumira ndipo anathamangira ku kompyuta. Mwa njira, makompyuta ndi televizioni kwa wina ndi mzake ali ndi zake zokha. Iwo, mwachiwonekere, akanakhala moyo kwa zaka chikwi zina. Koma mwanjira ina Anatoly anadwala ndi chimfine. Mkazi wake anali pamsonkhano mumzinda wina, ndipo kuchokera kumeneko ananyamuka kuti akafufuze wina, kapena kugaŵana naye zomwe anakumana nazo. Mwana wanga wamkazi nayenso anasiya - tchuthi. Anatoly amatchedwa dokotala wachigawo. Iwo ankalankhula. Mkaziyo anafunsa Anatoly za zizindikiro, mankhwala omwe anauzidwa, koma atadziwa kuti palibe munthu yemwe ali kunyumba ndipo palibe amene angasamalire munthu amene ali ndi kutentha kwa 39.7, anati: "Ndidzadutsa mavuto onse ndikubwerera." Patatha maola ochepa adabwera ndi mankhwala ndi zipatso. Kotero iwo anakumana. Vlad - kotero dzina lake linali-linali laling'ono kuposa Anatoly kwa zaka 10. Iye analibe banja. Sukuluyo siinagwire ntchito, ndiye kufalitsa, koma wothandizirayo angapeze kuti mwamuna wake? Anabwerera kwawo, kupita ku likulu, ndipo anagwiritsa ntchito nthawi yake yonse kugwira ntchito.
Anatoly atachira, adaganiza zoyamika dokotalayo. Ndinaphunzira ndandanda ya ntchito, ndinagula maluwa, ndipo ndinanditengera kunyumba. Ndipo mosayembekezereka, iye mwini, atapita ku kapu ya tiyi, anakhala mpaka pakati pausiku. Vlad anali wothandizira, wogwira mtima komanso womvetsetsa. Anatoly adayanjana nawo mavuto ambiri - ndipo adapita kunyumba ali ndi mtendere. Kunyumba palibe amene ankayembekezera. Mkazi wanga anali atagona. M'mawa adamupatsa moni, koma adangodula mutu wake: mafoniwo adang'ambika. Ndipo madzulo Anatoly anapita kachiwiri kukawona Vlad. Ndipo pambuyo pa miyezi iwiri adadziŵa zomwe iye ankafuna nthawi zonse komanso alibe moyo wake - mwayi wokambirana, kufunsira, kusamalira ndi kugawana nawo poyankha.
Kawirikawiri ankayesera kukambirana ndi mkazi wake, koma adayankha mauthengawo kuti: "Chipangizo cha olembera chatsekedwa kapena chatsekedwa pa Intaneti". Ndiyeno ... Kenako adavomereza kwa Vlad mwachikondi ndipo ananena kuti pamene anakwatiwa, koma anali wokonzeka kuyembekezera. Ndipo iye anasamukira kwa iye.
... Mkazi wanga patangopita sabata kamodzi anazindikira kuti Anatoly sagona usiku. Poyamba, ankadandaula za kupatulidwa kwa katundu, koma osati kusudzulana. Komabe, atatha Anatoly kufotokoza pempho kukhoti, mkaziyo anasintha khalidwe lake. Iye anayamba kuyitana, anakumana ndi mwamuna wake kuntchito, anabwera kwa iye pa nthawi ya masana. Tiyenera kupereka ngongole - kukhala otukuka kwambiri ndikuyesera kufotokozera Anatoly chisankho cha chilekano kumbali zonse. Zinkawoneka kuti sanali munthu, koma robot. Ndipo pokhapokha pamene ndinazindikira kusagwirizana kwa zomwe zinachitika, zinasweka. Iye analira, ndipo Anatoly anawona mwa mtsikanayo, yemwe poyamba ankamukonda, moona mtima ndi wamoyo. Koma ndinamvetsetsa kuti panali chifundo chokha chokha - kwa ine ndekha, kwa iye, kuti iwo anakhala alendo.
Iye anabwera ku zokambirana ndi katswiri wa zamaganizo chifukwa cha kulakwa, sabata isanafike kusudzulana. Pozindikira kuti zonse zidakonzedwa kale, Anatoly anayesa kufufuza: zomwe zinachitika ndi chiyanjano, chifukwa chiyani sakanakhoza kuzikhazikitsa izo zisanachitike? Mkazi wake atamudzudzula kuti: "Ndinayesera tonsefe," adamva kuti anali wolondola. Koma ngati zoyesayesazo sizidadodometse ndi aliyense mu chiyanjano, ngati ntchitoyo sinayambe kuimitsa malire - mwina anazindikira kuti pafupi ndi mwamuna wake, yemwe amafunikira ... "Ndikudziwa," adatero. kumapeto kwa msonkhano, Anatoly, ndizovuta zonse pakati pa moyo "...
Kotero, iyi ndi vuto lomwe aliyense amadziwa. Akatswiri a zamaganizo amafotokoza malire ake m'njira zosiyanasiyana - kuyambira zaka 37 mpaka 45. Kumbali imodzi, ndani amadziwa kwenikweni pakatikati? Sitipatsidwa kulongosola ... Komabe, molingana ndi kumverera kovomerezeka kwa anthu pa nthawi ina, iwo akukumana ndi chochitika chomwe theka la moyo wadutsa. Zili ngati kukwera kwautali pamwamba, kuthawa, zosawerengeka zopanda malire, zotsatiridwa ndi chiyambi cha kusadziwika kochokera pansi. Pamwamba yadutsa. Palibe amene angakhale kumeneko kosatha. Pa mbali imodzi, pamakhalabe mphamvu yeniyeni, mphamvu, ntchito. Kumbali inayi, zimamvetsanso kuti pamsonkhanowu sitingathe kuukitsidwa: mphamvu sizili zofanana ... Ndipo anthu amapirira mosiyana ...
Timakhala ovuta pa kutaya mphamvu ndi thupi. Koma zovuta kwambiri kuti tipulumuke posiyana ndi maloto ndi malingaliro. Ndi nthawi imeneyi kuti kumvetsetsa zomwe Yuri Loza wanena mu nyimbo yake yowawa ndi yakuya: "Ndichedwa kale, ndilibe zambiri kuti ndikhale ... Ndipo nyenyezi zozizwitsa sindidzawulukirapo ... Ndatopa kale ndi ambiri, Ndinatha kutopa ndi anthu ambiri. Ndili bwino kumbali ndekha. Ndi zophweka komanso zosavuta kulota ... "Panthawi imeneyi munthu amakhala ndi kusiyana pakati pa maloto ndi zenizeni. Ndipo mwina amavomereza kuti sitingakwanitse kuzipeza komanso amaweruzirako mbali ya zomwe zimasangalatsa, kusuntha, kukondwa, kapena kukana kuyesa zenizeni ndikupitirizabe kukhala mofanana, osaganizira kuti iyeyo wasintha, ndipo dziko silikulimbanabe ...
Kawirikawiri, vuto la pakati pa moyo limakhala ndi kuwonjezereka kwa zochitika zamkati, nkhawa yowonjezereka yokhudzana ndi tsogolo. Ena amatha kuzindikira njira izi ndi kuyendetsa magetsi kukhala njira yabwino. Ena samadzimva okha ndipo amaganiza kuti mavuto alibe nawo, koma ndi chilengedwe. Ndiwo amene zaka 40 ayamba kumanganso miyoyo yawo ndikusintha chirichonse - ntchito, abwenzi, banja . Ndiyeno pali chinyengo chakuti mukukumana ndi Kubadwanso kwatsopano, mnyamata wachiwiri ...
Marina, ali ndi zaka 39, mwadzidzidzi anayamba kukhala wosakhutira kwambiri ndi mabanja ake. "Kodi mukufuna chiyani?" - Anzanga anali osokonezeka. Inde, mwamuna ndi wachikondi, woganizira, wachikondi. Zonse ziri bwino, ngati osati "koma". Marina anali ndi nthawi yaying'ono, ndipo tsopano ankafuna ndalama zambiri, galimoto yatsopano, zovala zamtengo wapatali ... Ndipo mwamuna wake ndi injini wamba, mafuta ochepa komanso odzola. Poyang'ana pa iye, Marina adaganiza - kodi ndi mnzake wa m'kalasi? Ndipo tsiku lina adaganiza ... Anasudzulana mwamsanga mwamuna wake osamvetsa kanthu, kusiya mwana wamkulu wamkulu, anayamba kufalitsa zodzoladzola, anapanga ntchito ndipo adapeza mwamuna watsopano. Ali ndi zaka 42, adakhalanso mayi. Ndipo, mwana wanga atatembenuka chaka, ndinazindikira kuti "betri wakhala pansi." Mwanayo sanali wosangalala, wamng'ono - zaka zisanu ndi ziwiri zachinyamata - mwamuna wake anakwiya ... Marina anadza kwa katswiri wa zamaganizo kuti amvetse moyo wake. Anayesanso kuponyera miyala, osadziwa kuti inali nthawi yoti awasonkhanitse. Ndipo ngakhale katswiri wa zamaganizo ankawoneka mwachifundo kwa mkazi wokongola uyu yemwe amathera mphamvu zambiri ndi mphamvu kuyesa kuyang'ana aang'ono, okondwa ndi opambana ndipo panthawi imodzimodziyo akuyang'ana mayankho a mafunso osatha: "Ndine yani? Mayi? Mkazi wamalonda wopambana? Mkazi wa munthu wokongola? Ndipo komabe? "Ndipo Marina wokhala ndi chikumbumtima amakumbukira moyo ndi mwamuna wake woyamba, momveka bwino komanso momveka bwino ndipo tsopano sungatheke. Iye amaganiza ndi mantha kuti chirichonse chiyenera kuchitidwa mwatsopano ndi mwana, matenda a ubwana, sukulu ... Ndipo thanzi limayamba kulephera - posachedwapa anachitidwa opaleshoni ndipo sakanatha kuchira ...
Pakatikati pa moyo ndi nthawi imene ana adakula kale, pamene moyo uli wosinthika komanso umadziganizira nokha. Zaumoyo, ntchito, kuti kuchokera ku dongosolo lofunika kwambiri ndilo kotheka kuzindikira, ndi zomwe munganene. Nthawi zina kuzindikira za pakati pa moyo ndi mwayi weniweni wopulumuka ku maubwenzi owonongeka pogwiritsa ntchito chisankho chakale komanso chosayenera. Chifukwa ndi zaka zino kuti kugonana sikukhala kofunika kwambiri kusiyana ndi "chikhalidwe", kutsimikizira kuti munthu ali ndi chikhalidwe choyambirira pa chilengedwe.
Andrew anakwatira Liza ali ndi zaka 16, ndipo anali ndi zaka 18. Chikondi? Ayi, chilakolako komanso kutenga mimba kwa Lisa. Mwana wamkazi anabadwa. Achinyamata amavutika kumanga maubwenzi, ndipo ngati si amayi a Lisa, omwe adamuthandiza mwana wake ndi kumuthandiza mnyumba, sakanakhala limodzi kwa nthawi yayitali. Mwana wawo wamkazi anakwatira ndipo Andrei anali ndi zaka 38. Ndipo mwadzidzidzi anazindikira kuti Lisa anali mkazi wosiyana kwambiri naye. Ndipo zaka 20 za moyo wawo, ubalewo unayambika pa mikangano, chiyanjano, kugonana, mikangano yotsutsana ... Ndipo iwo alibe kanthu koti akambirane. Liza amasangalala ndi ma TV ndi zibwenzi. Iye-mabuku ndi mafilimu ozama. Andrei achoka kwa Lisa, koma osati kwa mkazi wina. Iye anati: "Ndipita kuchipinda changa."
Ndipo ndi zoona. Panthawiyi, ndikofunika kwambiri kuposa kale kuti mudzipeze, kupeza, kuphunzira momwe mungadziwire mlendo pamsonkhano, pozindikira kuti uyu ndi mnzanga wachikulire. Chotsatira, kukangana kwa theka la moyo kale kunabereka zipatso. Tsopano ndikofunika kusunga zokolola. Ena adakali ndi nthawi yofesa munda kachiwiri, ena sachita ngozi. Koma aliyense amayamba kupeza mwayi watsopano. Chimene chimawoneka ngati kutayika - kukula kwa ana, kuchepetsa ntchito, kuchepetsa chilakolako cha dziko la mkati kusiyana ndi chikhalidwe cha anthu - kumakhala chinthu chofunikira. Timapeza kukhwima ndi nzeru, timaphunzira kukhululukira anthu oyandikana nawo ndi kusokoneza maubwenzi ndi omwe sakufuna kutaya nthawi.
Ndilo lingaliro loopsya la nthawi yosinthidwa yomwe ili chizindikiro choti mwathana nacho vuto ili. M'nkhani yakuti "Ponyani Yanga Yachidule," Stephen King akulongosola za ukalamba monga kumverera kwa nthawi yofulumira. Kutambasula pang'ono, maphunziro osaphunzira kusukulu amasonyeza chiyambi cha moyo, kukwanira kwa nthawi - zaka zaunyamata, pamene tikukhala mogwirizana ndi zenizeni. Koma pakapita zaka wina amaseka pa ife ndipo amachezetsa manja a maulonda athu, ndipo nthawi imathamangira, ndipo ikucheperachepera ...
Ndipo, mwinamwake, anthu onse omwe ali pamwambapa kapena atangoyamba kumene, adzatha ndikuganiza za iwo okha, za moyo, za okondedwa awo ... Ndipo, mosachedwa, mawa adzakhala lero, tsopano. Kukonda, kuvutika, kuchita zomwe unalota, kutsutsana ndikukhazikitsa, kubereka ndi kulera ana, kulemba zithunzi ndi nyimbo, phunzirani kuyendetsa galimoto ... Chifukwa chosayesayesa, zomwe amayesa kulindira, ndi nthawi yobedwa kuchokera ku moyo. Uwu ndiwo moyo, wofupikitsidwa ndi manja ake.