Mwamuna wanga woyamba atamwalira, ndinaganiza kuti sindidzakwatiranso. Iye ankakhala mwakachetechete ndipo anakulira mwana wake wamkazi. Ine ndamudziwa iye kwa pafupi zaka zisanu. Ife tinali abwenzi, ngati izo zingatchedwe izo. Koma mwadzidzidzi iye adayika patsogolo, iwe udzakhala mkazi wanga, ine ndakhala ndikukudikirirani kwa nthawi yaitali. Ndipo patapita miyezi isanu ndi umodzi tinakwatirana. Zinali zopusa, maubwenzi okondweretsa ... Zonse zinapitirira ngati maloto kwa zaka ziwiri zonse. Mkazi wina, SHE, anali pafupi ndi ine pamaso panga, koma anadziwidwa ngati bwenzi la mwana, iye poyamba adatiyamikira pa tsiku laukwati wake, ndipo sindinayesere kuganiza kuti iye ndi mwamuna wake ali ndi chibwenzi cholimba.
Pa zaka 2 zokongola zathu sizinali patali (mwina, sindinadziwe). Pa tsiku loopsya lomwe tinakangana kwambiri, mwamuna wanga anali wansanje kwambiri pa ine, koma zonse zinali zosiyana; Iye adachita zonse kuti ndidzimve mlandu ndikukangana, ngakhale kuti ndinalibe kanthu ndi wina aliyense. Ndipo ife tinasiyanitsa, ife tinayamba kukhala mosiyana. Ndine ndekha, ndipo anakumana naye, ngakhale kuti sindinadziwe zimenezo. Patapita miyezi isanu ndi umodzi, iye anandiitana ndikuika patsogolo - iwo ali pamodzi. Ndikuwafunira zabwino zonse pamoyo wanga, ndinalowa mu ntchito ndi maphunziro a mwana wanga wamkazi.
Chimene chinali kuchitika mu moyo wanga chinali chosatheka kufotokoza pakali pano. Ndinalemba makalata. Kwa iye analembera makalata. Osatumizidwa kwa wolandira. Zaka 2 ndi miyezi itatu ya kupsinjika maganizo, misonzi mu mtsamiro, kufuula mu mdima ... Chimene chinandipulumutsa ine sindikudziwa chomwe chinandichititsa ine kuchita zinthu zoipa zomwe sindikuzidziwa. Mayitanidwe ake osachepera ndi ma sms .... Inu muli bwanji? Kodi thanzi lanu liri bwanji? Monga mwana wamkazi? Ndipo kotero ife tinakomana .. Atatu a ife ... Nthawi yoyamba ife atatu .. Poyamba ine ndinaganiza, ine ndinalota kuti iye amamvetsa kulakwitsa kumene iye anandipanga, kundisiya ine, koma tsoka silinali kumbali yanga. Anandiuza kuti adakopeka ndi chinthu china chimene sichikanafuna kuti asakumane naye. Koma panthawi yomweyi, mwamuna wanga sankafuna kuti azitha kusudzulana, mwina ndikudziwa kuti ndimamukonda nthawi zonse ndikumudikirira
Kupyolera mwa anthu omwe tinali kuwadziwana nawo, ndinadziŵa kuti banja lake limodzi ndi iye sizinali zonse zomwe ankaganiza. Kapena mwinamwake, iye ankafanizira ndi maubwenzi athu. Anayamba kukhumudwa, nsanje payekha ndi ine, chifukwa ndinkangokhala mkazi wake wolemekezeka ndipo sindikufuna kuti ndipange naye gulu lovomerezeka. Kuchokera ku "banja" lawo mabwenzi athu onse adachoka, ngakhale achibale ndi achibale anamutsutsa, chifukwa adadziwa mtundu wa munthu yemwe anali naye.
Ndipo kotero izo zinachitika. Ndinazindikira kuti anali m'ndende. Ndipo anapanga mbuye wake. Pamene ine ndinapeza kuti iye anali mu ndende, ine ndinayesera kuti ndipeze. Amene akuyang'ana, nthawi zonse azipeza. Ndipo ine ndinazipeza izo. Kufika pa tsiku, ndinapempha thandizo, osati monga mkazi kapena mkazi, koma monga munthu. Ndinadziŵa kuti izi zinali chilango chokhwima kwambiri kwa yemwe analakwitsa posankha kwake, ndipo palibe amene ayenera kukhala m'ndende. Iye anakana kulandira thandizo langa ngati ankakonda, anapempha kuti andikhululukire, anati adamvetsa kulakwitsa kwake tsopano ndipo sangasinthane ndi aliyense.
Mtima wanga unanjenjemera, chifukwa ndinakondabe mwamuna wanga ndikufuna kusunga zabwino zonse zomwe zinali pakati pathu.Ndinadziwanso kuti amamva kuti amandikonda ndipo ndimangokhala mumtima mwanga. Ndipo china chirichonse, izi ndizokumvetsa kusamveka, nsanje ndi kukwiya wina ndi mzake. Chifukwa cha kukangana kwathunthu, tinasiyana, tinakwiya wina ndi mzake, tinasonyeza kunyada, ngakhale kuti panalibe mgwirizano. Tinatha kudutsa m'magulu onse a gehena palimodzi, tinali pamodzi ndikugwira "manja" nthawi yomwe adatsimikizira kuti ndi osalakwa. Sindinkayembekezera chilichonse, mpaka mapeto omwe sindinakhulupirire kuti tidzakhala pamodzi, koma ndinkafuna kuthandizira. Ndipo ife tikhoza. Anamasulidwa ndikumasulidwa. Ndipo anadza kudzandiuza.
Ndinakhululukira .. Tinayankhula naye kwa nthawi yaitali, tinauzana zomwe zinachitika m'zaka ziwiri. Ndinapatsa makalata onse osatumizidwa omwe ndinamulembera. Tsopano ife tiri limodzi. Mwinamwake, ichi ndi chikondi chenicheni, pamene mukumvetsa ndi kukhululukira. Ife tinadutsa zoipa zonse, tinayiwala zokhumudwitsa zonse ndi kusamvetsetsana ... Ndipo chofunikira kwambiri, tsopano si malo athu mu nsanje ndi kusakhulupirira. Zinali zofunikira kuti mukhale olimba mtima kale, khalani oleza mtima ndikukambirana ndi mwamuna kapena mkazi zomwe zikuchitika mwapadera. Pambuyo pake, popanda kudalira, sipangakhale CHIKONDI. Tinamvetsetsa zolakwa zathu zonse, ngakhale kuti sitimayiwala zam'mbuyo, koma timangoyang'ana zam'mbuyo, kumene kumakhala kukoma mtima, chifundo, kukhulupilika, kuwona mtima .... Kumeneko, ife ndife okalamba, timasamalira zidzukulu zathu, timakhala pamoto ndikukumbukira nthawi zonse zodabwitsa za kulengedwa kwa banja lathu lamphamvu.