Mu moyo, tsiku lililonse timasankha zochita, zina zimakhudza miyoyo yathu, ndipo zina sizikuthandizira kusintha kwakukulu m'miyoyo yathu, ngakhale kuti zosankha zathu zili ndi malo ake m'moyo. Zovala izi kapena galimoto, nyumba kapena varnish yatsopano sikofunika kwambiri, ndikofunikira kuti tisankhe.
Timasankha tokha ndi anzathu a moyo, kapena ma satellite a gawo lina la moyo uno. Ndipo poyang'anizana ndi kusankha, muyenera kusankha zomwe mukusowa ndi momwe mukufunira, ndipo musagonjere kukumbukira kwanu. Tsatirani malingaliro anu ndi kumverera kwanu, kutsogoleredwa ndi zoyera. Ine ndinamvetsa izi kachiwiri pa zondichitikira zanga. Ndipo kotero, momwe mungapangire molondola kusankha kwanu, pamene muli ndi okondedwa awiri, koma mosiyana ndi inu? Kodi mungasankhe bwanji pakati pa anyamata omwe akufuna kukhala pafupi ndi inu? Zimakhala zovuta makamaka pamene anyamata onse ali ndi tanthauzo lapadera kwa inu, ndipo aliyense wa iwo ali okhudzana ndi chinachake chapadera, kapena chogwirizanitsa, koma kodi sewerolo, kale lomwe linali kapena likuchitika pakalipano? Kodi izi zimakhudza chisankho chabwino?
Mu moyo wanga kunali, makamaka, alipo munthu wokongola kwambiri. Blond-eyed blonde, ndi thupi la Apollo. Ndinamukonda kwambiri. Ndipo ndinadabwa ndikumuganizira. Zaka zisanu tinalankhula naye, ndipo sitinayankhulane. Kwa zaka zisanu, panali zinthu zina zosadziŵika bwino zomwe zinapangitsa kuti anthu asamagwirizane nazo, zomwe tinakopeka wina ndi mnzake, ngati kuti ndi maginito. Kwa nthawi yayitali, sitimayankhulanso, ndipo ndinakumana ndi mnyamata amene akuwombera fumbi ndipo ali wokonzeka kukwaniritsa chilichonse chimene ndimapanga. Ndili naye bwino ndikusangalatsa, ngakhale maonekedwe ake ali kutali ndi Apollonian. Nthawi zonse ndimanena kuti mwamuna ayenera kukhala wosiyana kwambiri ndi nyani, kuti amusiyanitse ndi nyamakazi. Kotero ine ndinavomera, ndipo tsopano ndinazindikira kuti palibe chimene chinganenedwe pachabe. Chowonadi, maonekedwe samandichitira gawo lapadera, chifukwa ndi nkhani ina momwe amachitira iwe ndi zomwe akuyimira monga munthu. Makhalidwe aumunthu mwa iwo amakula bwanji makamaka. Ndizofunika kwambiri kwa munthu, osati maonekedwe ake. Kuwonekera ndi chigoba cha ife, kunyamula. Chinthu chachikulu ndicho mkati. Masiku ano, chifukwa cha zinthu zopanda pake kapena zabwino, phukusi lokongola, lokongola limapangitsa chidwi cha wogula. Chida chabwino cha mankhwala sichikusowa kolemba ndi malonda. Anthu, mwachiwoneka chokongola, ali pachikondi ndi iwo okha. Iwo amadziyika okha, zofuna zawo ndi zikhumbo, pamwamba pa ena. Ndipo chikondi changa choyambirira kwa ine kamodzi chinati "Sindikusowa mtsikana amene akulira msomali uliwonse wosweka." Mwa lingaliro langa, msungwanayo wayikidwa kale mu majini, mu DNA kulira kwa msomali uliwonse wosweka ndi wosweka, chifukwa ife timayika mphamvu zochuluka ndi chidwi mwa iwo, ndiyeno amathyola.
Ndiwe mkazi, simukusowa kusintha kwa mwamuna, mukusowa kuti munthuyo azisintha kwa inu! Ngati mutathyola misomali, akuyenera kukupatsani chifundo, kukumbatirani ndi kukhumudwitsa, ndipo musanene mawu oterowo. Ine ndidzakumbukira mawu awa, mwinamwake kwa moyo. Kapena kodi simukuyenera kumvetsera kwambiri? Musagwiritse ntchito zifukwa zake, koma ndi zanu. Musakhale chigoba kwa iye, chifukwa ndi momwe mumagwera pamaso pake. Ngati mubwerera mmbuyo, zikutanthauza kuti mukumukakamiza. Khalani panopo.
Ndipo posachedwa wanditchula, adanena kuti akufuna kuti ayambe kukondana ndi ine, anati adandikonda ine ndi maginito, ndipo sakanatha popanda ine. Amapereka kuti akakumane. Zikuwoneka kuti maloto anga anakwaniritsidwa, ndipo ndinamva pafupi mawu onse amene ndikufuna kuti ndimve kuchokera kwa iye. Mwinamwake, ine ndinali ndi chinachake mkati ndipo ndinayankhula ndi mawu ake, chifukwa mmbuyomu ine ndimagwirizana ndi kukhudzika kwakukulu. Iwo anali amphamvu kwambiri moti sitingathe kukhala pamodzi. Zomwe ndimakumbukira zomwezo, adandimangiriza kwa iye ndikugwiritsanso ntchito kale. Ndipo, zikuwoneka kuti, kukumbukira uku kumatha kuwukitsa maganizo ake akale kachiwiri, koma ndili ndi mnyamata wamseri amene ndikukumana naye kumbuyo kwa khoma lamwala. Ndimamukhulupirira ndikumudalira, ndipo ndikudziwa kuti sadzalephera ndipo sadzandinyenga. Ngakhale kuti ndinkakonda kutsatira mfundo yakuti "palibe amene angadalire." Kodi palinso zina zomwe mungathe kuzifuna muukwati? Kukhulupilira mnzanu - kodi si chinthu chofunikira kwambiri?
Nditamulandira, ndinaganizira za mawuwo ndi kupereka zomwe ndinali nazo kale, ndipo kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga sindinkafuna kusintha. Ndinanyansidwa kwambiri ndi lingaliro lakuti ndingagulitse munthu uyu wa golidi yemwe ali wokonzeka kundipatsa chirichonse, mwa mtundu wina wonyada, wofunkha. Maganizo athu ndi malingaliro athu kwa wina ndi mzake ndi owona mtima moti nthawi zina ndimaganiza kuti ndizosatheka. Ndimayesetsa kusintha kwa iye, ndipo amayesera kusintha kwa ine, ndipo kotero, tikasintha, timakhala mogwirizana. Kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga, sindinkafuna kuyankhulana naye. Kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga, sindinkafuna kuthamangitsa zabwino, chifukwa ndinali wotsimikiza kuti yabwino kwambiri ili m'manja mwanga. Ndinadziŵa kuti ndinali m'manja mwa opambana. Ndipotu, moyo timayesetsa kwambiri, kusintha osakwatirana ngati magolovesi. Tangoganizani, "koma chikondi changa," timangotembenukira kwa mnyamata wina, ndipo timayamba kuganiza, "Kodi ichi si chikondi changa, mwinamwake ndikulakwitsa." Miyoyo yathu yonse tikuopa kugwirizanitsa miyoyo yathu ndi munthu wolakwika, miyoyo yathu yonse yomwe tikuopa kuti tiphonye zabwino. Kwa nthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga ndinali wotsimikiza za chisankho changa.
Mwina izi ndi zomwe chikondi chimawoneka. Mwinamwake, kotero pangani chisankho choyenera, monga momwe ine ndachitira mu nkhani iyi. Chinthu chachikulu ndichokuti mumakhulupirira kwambiri mnzanuyo, ndipo chofunikira kwambiri, kuti simukufunafuna chikondi china. Mwinamwake, uwu ndi chikondi - pamene simukufuna kudya chipatso choletsedwa, koma mukufuna kukhala pafupi ndi iye, ndipo nthawi zonse mumamuphonya, pamene simukukhala pafupi. Musakhale akaidi akale. Zakale sizingakhale zenizeni komanso zam'mbuyo, zomwe zingathe kukhala tsogolo lanu. Musakhale ndi malingaliro, ndipo musatsatire zonyenga, sankhani kudalirika ndi chikondi, ndipo muzizikonda. Sankhani panopa kuti mupange tsogolo labwino! Ndipo zakale zidzakukoka. Ngati adakhala m'mbuyomo pali malo ake. Musati muzitulutse izo pakalipano.