Tsiku la mwayi
Pali buku lochititsa chidwi la wolemba mabuku wa Scandinavian Jan Eckholm "Tutta Karlsson, woyamba ndi yekhayo, Ludwig wachinayi ndi ena." Yemwe amawerengera mwinamwake amakumbukira nkhani yokhudza mtima ya nkhandwe Ludwig Larsen ndi nkhuku Tutta Karlsson. Pambuyo poyambirira kufalitsa, pamene Tanya Romanenko adatembenuzidwa kukhala Tutta Larsen, omverawo anali atangodziwa kale kokha za dzina losazolowereka, losaiwalika. Moyo Wautali - Tanya m'njira zina zikufanana ndi tsogolo la ankhondo a nkhaniyi. Mwina uwu ndi ulosi. Apa chirichonse ndi chovuta kwambiri, chosokoneza ndi ... chowawa. Chimene sichinacitike pa moyo wa Tanya: kupambana kwa kulenga, kukula kwa ntchito, nkhani zachikondi, kukonda amuna, kutaya mwana, ndi kusungulumwa kwa nthawi yaitali. "Ngakhale kuti ndinabadwira ndipo ndinakulira ku Donbas, sindinadziwepo kuti ndiloweta m'tawuni ya Moscow. Nthawi zonse ndimalota ndikukhala ndikugwira ntchito mumzinda uno, ndinalimbikitsidwa ndi maphunziro omwe akubwera ku yunivesite yabwino kwambiri mudziko muno - MSU, komanso kuti ndingapeze mwayi wokhala mbali ya mzinda waukulu, ndi mwayi ndi mwayi wopambana. Nthawi ina ndinkangomva, ndikuchita manyazi, ndikuganiza za zovuta kumvetsetsa. Chinthu chokha chomwe chinandikhumudwitsa ine chinali chilankhulo champhamvu cha Chiyukireniya. Koma anzanga ochokera ku hostel kuchokera kwa ine adamugwedeza mwamsanga. Ndi njira yophweka, koma yopambana - yodetsedwa, yophimbidwa. Kwachindunji kwa chaka, nkhani yofewa imasinthika mosavuta. Pankhani zapakhomo, ndiye kuti ineyo ndinali ndi zokwanira. Mofanana ndi ambiri, panalibe nyumba yabwino, nsalu zabwino, osati ndalama zokwanira. Choncho pambuyo ponse pa bwalo lamilandu - 1991. Ngongole zazikulu mwa ophunzira zinali zosawerengeka. Ndimakumbukira momwe ine ndi abwenzi anga tinakhalira ku hostel kwa masiku angapo titakhala pa tiyi ndi mkate. Ziri bwino. Pomwepo, pamene ndinayamba kupeza ndalama, komanso nthawi zambiri ndimadya, masabata angapo amavutika ndi matenda osokoneza bongo komanso mitundu yonse ya matenda - kotero thupi limatsamidwa ndi zakudya za anthu. Ndinali ndi mwayi wochuluka - ndinapita nthawi imodzi mwachinthu chochititsa chidwi kwambiri padziko lonse lapansi. Ndipo pa ofesi ya zolemba zachuma ndi malonda, pa nthawi imeneyo - zochitikazo ndi zosowa. Koma ndinasankha maphunzirowa osati mwadzidzidzi: amayi anga adagwiritsa ntchito zolemba zamalonda ndikukhala moyo wawo wonse, adakhala woimira nyuzipepala yoyamba, athandizira poyera anthu ogwira ntchito m'nyuzipepalayi, ankaonedwa kuti ndi omwe amalankhula mwatsatanetsatane, omwe amagwira ntchito kwa mabungwe ambiri, kuphatikizapo Sweden. Ndinatsatira mapazi ake. Zoona, malonda m'dzikoli amangoyamba kumene. Zinkawoneka kuti m'tsogolomu zikanakhala zodalirika, ndalama zimagwira ntchito. Kuphatikizanso, ndinali ndi mwayi kawiri - ndinali msilikali womaliza wa Soviet Union, amene analowa mwaulere. Kale m'chaka chotsatira, atatha kuwombera, nzika za ku Ukraine zinkachita zinthu monga alendo komanso kwa nthambi yokhayokha. Inde, banja lathu linalibe ndalama zoterozo. Momwemo, ku Moscow sindikanakhala nawo, ndipo ngati kuti moyo wanga wam'tsogolo unakhazikitsidwa, sudziwika. "
Tsiku lophwanya malamulo a boma
"Ndinayamba kugwira ntchito chaka chachiwiri. Poyamba, pamodzi ndi abwenzi, iwo anali kutayika mu dipatimenti yosangalatsi ya imodzi mwa makampani. Koma mwamsanga anazindikira kuti malonda - si anga. Ndiyeno zotsatira za zomwe zinachitikazo zinalowererapo. Imodzi mwa mapulogalamu otsogolera odwala anali odwala, panalibenso wina woti apite. Anandimika. Kotero ine ndinakhala nyimbo yoyamba ya nyimbo pa BIZ TV, ndipo ndinabwera ku MTV. Ndipo anapita-anapita. M'lingaliro lenileni, iye anakhala woyamba ku Russia. Ife ndi anyamata tinali oyamba kulumikizana ndi anthu pawindo. Zisanachitike, oyankhula okha - "mitu yoyankhulirana" - anali mu chimango. Mwa kulankhula kwina, takhala TV, yemwe sanafalitse, - analankhula kwa omvera m'chinenero chimodzi, pokhapokha mlengalenga. Tinadzilola tokha zonse: kugwirana, kuseka, chisoni komanso kulira. Zinali zosangalatsa, zosangalatsa, kuti monga ntchito sinkawoneke - buzz yopitirira. Ndipo panthawi yosangalatsa iwo adayamba kulipira, mwachisangalalo panalibe malire! Poyamba tinkaonedwa ngati achinyamata oyesera, masewera ena, omwe anafalitsidwa ndi uthenga umodzi wokha: "Mu chimango mumaloledwa chirichonse. Chinthu chachikulu - musamalumbire ndipo musasonyeze bulu lopanda kanthu. " Pa mbali imodzi, izi ndizophatikiza, pambali - zosachokera. Ife, ndithudi, tinadziwonetsera tokha, koma tinapanga zolakwa zambiri. Pamlengalenga, anthu nthawi zambiri ankatcha anthu osakwanira, ndipo matemberero anatha, ndipo zowonongeka zinagwa pansi, ndipo makamera anaiwala kuti asiye, ndipo sitinadziwe za izo. Kotero iwo anapitiriza kumenyedwa kale za "za iye, za mtsikana". Koma ndithudi malingaliro onse a kuwonetsedwa kwa moyo. Ndipo ngati ndinu katswiri, ngati lilime lanu likuyimira bwino ndipo simukukwera m'thumba la mawu, ndiye kuti ndi bwino. Ndikofunika - panthawi yovuta kuti musakhale wamanyazi, osati kuti mutayike, osati kuti muvutike. Ndiye manyazi aliwonse akhoza kukulunga nokha. Tinafotokozera maganizo athu ponena za ndale, ngakhale kuti analibe zikhulupiriro zandale. Mu 1992 ine ndinapyoza mphuno zanga, mu 1993 ine ndinapanga cholemba choyamba. Kodi mungalingalire momwe zimawonekera? Monga kuphwanya malamulo onse, kupondaponda kwa makhalidwe, maboma! Chimene satana ndi mdierekezi ine sindinawoneke pamapangidwe - ndi zisala, ndi dzino lachitsulo, ndi penti ya nkhondo. Sindinayambe ndakondwera ndi malingaliro a pagulu komanso kukoma kwa anthu. "
Tsiku lachiwonongeko chokhwima
Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndinakwatirana ndikuphunzira (mwamuna woyamba wa Tatyana ndiye gitala wa gulu la IFK Maxim Galstyan). Tonse tinakhala moyo zaka zisanu ndi zitatu. Unali ubale wautali, wathanzi, womwe unathera posiyana kwambiri ndi wina ndi mnzake. Maganizo apita, maubwenzi amatha. Ngakhale zinali zochitika zabwino. Kupanda kutero, lero ndikanakhala wosiyana-ndizo zopanda nzeru, nthawi zonse ndikufulumira kwinakwake, ndikufuna kuti ndiwoneke kuti ndine wosayanjanitsika, ndikusowa china chirichonse, nthawizonse ndimangomanga amuna, ndikuopa kuti chinachake sichikhoza kuchitika, ndi chikhumbo chokhala choyamba, wachiwiri. Mwa mawu, kukangana kosafunikira kumayendetsedwa kwa aliyense. Anachoka ndi mavuto osafunikira, akukoka zinthu zosafunika, kuwononga nthawi osati anthu amenewo. " Zaka eyiti zapitazo mu moyo wa Tutta, tsoka linachitika. Akazi amvetsetsa gehena iyi. Pa sabata la 32 la mimba, Tatiana adayenera kubadwa mwadzidzidzi ndi zovuta zenizeni, zoyesayesa, zopweteka zosatheka. Kumbali imodzi, iye anabala monga mkazi wachibadwa aliwonse mu kuvutika, kwinakwake_iye ankadziwa kuti kunalibe mwana. Pomwepo madokotala adanena kuti vutoli likhoza kupezeka kale kwambiri, sabata lachisanu ndi chiwiri, koma zinthu zenizeni zomwe wodwalayo adadziwidwa pokhapokha pa 32. Kuchokera apo, mayiyo adadziwa kuti mandawo anali ndani. Pambuyo pake panali kuvutika maganizo kwa nthawi yaitali. Sindinkafuna kukhala ndi moyo, ngakhale kuti sindinkaganiza zodzipha. Ndiye panalibe kanthu nkomwe: palibe malingaliro, opanda malingaliro, opanda maganizo, opanda zikhumbo. Tanya anamwalira mopweteka - zonse mwamakhalidwe ndi mwathupi. Kwa nthawi yaitali ndinali m'chipatala, amayi anga anali ndi ine nthawi zonse. Kutentha kunasungidwa kwa 40, nthawi zonse, mankhwala. Iye akufotokoza kuti: "Thupi lonse linagwa." Madokotala abwino kwambiri, mayi ndi chipembedzo anawathandiza kukhala ndi moyo. Ambiri amakhulupirira kuti zovutazo zinachitika chifukwa cha maganizo osasamala, osadziletsa kwa iwe ndi mwana wako. Choyamba - chiwonetsero chokhala ndi chithunzi chokhazikika, chithunzi chosatha chomwe chimakhalapo mpaka mwezi wachisanu ndi chitatu, chovala chokwera kwambiri ndi jeans chokhala ndi lamba, kutulutsa mwana wamtsogolo monga ngati kuwonetsera. Tanya amatsutsana kwambiri. "Mimba inali chisangalalo chachikulu, chomwe ndinalota ndikugawana nawo dziko lonse lapansi, ndinkafuna kuwonetsa aliyense momwe zilili zabwino kuti ndiyembekezere mwana. Ndipo mkazi yemwe ali pamalowa sakhala wolemera, osati woopsa, osadwala. Ndi wokongola. Ndinamverera bwino, sindinadwale ndi toxicosis, kunali mphamvu zambiri ndi mphamvu mwa ine! Pansi sizinapitike, zimagwedezeka, paliponse pakhomo. Ndipo sindinkaopa maso oipa, maso oipa. Mafilimu ambiri amawombera pamapiko a glossies mu zochitika zosangalatsa: Demi Moore, Pamela Anderson. Ndipo palibe. Mwina mwinamwake. Mwachidule, ine ndi mwamuna wanga sitingathe kumupatsa mwanayo zomwe akufunikiradi. Pano mwanayo wasankha kuti asawonekere. Aliyense amene salola kuti Mulungu agwe mu mkhalidwe wofanana ndi wanga - kukhumudwa kwakukulu ndi zowawa, ndikutha kuwonetsa njira yabwino yochokera kunja: ndi mphamvu zanu zonse, kugunda mkamwa mwanu (kapena bulu) ndi kunena mwakachetechete: "Inde musamachite manyazi, Zamtengo wapatali? Sonkhanitsani pomwepo ndikudzuka. " Ngati munthu ayenda yekha, amapuma, palibe chimene chimamupweteka - koma izi ndizofunika kuyamika Mulungu kwambiri. Inde, ndizoipa ngati mutaya ntchito yanu, mukuvutika ngati munthuyo achoka ... Koma, ndikukhulupirirani, izi ndizovuta kwambiri. Koma pamene matendawa amalepheretsa, ndipo inu nokha, popanda thandizo, simungakhoze kuwuka, pamene mukuwona kuti mukukhala mtolo, ndipo palibe njira yotulukira - ndiye kuti mumayamba kumvetsa chomwe chiri - chimwemwe chenicheni cha kukhalapo. Ndizokuti ndiwe wamoyo basi. Ndipo ena onse, akhulupirire ine, adzasinthadi, chifukwa Mulungu amapatsa munthu ndendende momwe angathere. "
Tsiku la Kubadwa kwa Luka
Kuchokera ku tsoka kupita ku chimwemwe si kutali kwambiri - Tanya posachedwapa adziwe za izi: Ubale watsopano ndi mwamuna wina udzabweretsa mtendere ndi chimwemwe choyankhulana kachiwiri, ndipo mu 2005 mwana wake Luka adawonekera. Chisangalalo cha amayi ake, adatenga nthawi yaitali kuchokera kwa anthu ena, koma mimba ndi kubala zinali zophweka mosavuta. Ndipo chisangalalo, mwinamwake, chikanakhala changwiro ngati bamboyo akanakhala nawo. Koma adachoka, ndipo tsiku lobadwa la Tutta, lachikazi, lachisangalalo linasinthidwa kwa zaka zingapo. "Panthawi yomwe mwana wanga anabadwira, ndinasiya kukhumudwa ndi anthu. Kukhumudwa konse, ndi zina zotero, za anthu, kalelo kale. Kwa aliyense wa iwo ndikuthokoza kale chifukwa chakuti anali pafupi wina ndi mzake, ndipo kuti aliyense wa iwo ali ndi zowala zambiri, zokoma, zenizeni. Chabwino, pophunzitsa maphunziro ovuta ndikuthokoza kwambiri. Ndinaitana mwana wanga Luka, chifukwa, poyamba, ndi dzina la m'Baibulo, ndipo kachiwiri, dzina lake ndi agogo ake a agogo ake. Panthawiyi mimba inali yosavuta. Ndinabereka ndekha, popanda mavuto komanso mofulumira kwambiri. Pamene mwana wanga anabweretsedwa kwa ine kwa nthawi yoyamba ndikugona pamimba, sanangoyankhula, sanafune chilichonse. Iye adalankhula mwakachetechete, akudodometsa chinthu chake, chomwe amachidziwa, adamuuza zomwe adaziwona. Ndi bambo ake sitikuonana ndipo sitinayankhulane. Iye samabwera kwa Luka mwina. Ngakhale, mwinamwake, mu mkhalidwe uno, ife tonse tili ndi mlandu. Tikuthokozani Mulungu kuti munthu uyu mmoyo wanga wapita, chifukwa ndi iye tinapanga mnyamata wamasiye. "
Tsiku laling'ono la Equinox
Ndi mwamuna wake wamakono Valery Tanya anakumana pa pulojekiti ya TV "Chinsinsi cha Kupambana". Anabwera ndi gulu lake loimba kuchokera ku Saratov, koma m'malo mwa likulu adagonjetsa mtima wa wopereka. Kwa nthawi yaitali banjali linabisa chikondi chomwe chinayamba. Ndipo osati chifukwa chakuti ankawopa kufalitsa - iwo ankawopa kuopseza chimwemwe. Patapita chaka iwo adakwatirana. Kuchokera nthawi imeneyo, Tanya sanakhale ndi tsiku limodzi lachimwemwe, mtendere, chiyamiko. Poyamba, Luka anatenga papa watsopano mofulumira, ndi nsanje yodalirika yaunyamata. Ndipotu, Valery amadziwa mmene angagwirizane ndi ana. Tsopano iwo ndi abwenzi enieni. Ndipo pamene amayi anga mpaka usiku kuntchito, kwa amuna ake, iye ali bata. "Ndizabwino kuti mwamuna wanga si munthu wamalonda wawonetsero ndipo alibe chochita ndi televizioni yanga yopanda pake ndi moyo wailesi. Amagwira ntchito monga katswiri wamakono mu kampani yaing'ono yopanga. Choyamba, ndine mkazi wake ndi mayi ake, Luke, ndiyeno ndine woonetsa TV ndi munthu wamba. Valera ndi munthu weniweni, wamphamvu, woyenera, woleza mtima. Iye kwa ife ndi mwana wake - weniweni wammbuyo. Ndipo ndikupitiriza kusintha - kuti ndikhale wabwino. Ngakhale kuti potsirizira pake, ziwoneka, sizidzapambana. Monga munthu wina wamaphunziro oganiza bwino, anati: "Chisangalalo chonse ndi matenda a Alzheimer's, dementia yochepa. Munthu wamba sangathe kukhutira ndi moyo wake. Panthawi imodzimodziyo, iye ali ndi ufiti wokwanira ndi kuseketsa kuti achite zonse nzeru. " Chilimwechi, Tutta Larsen akuyembekezeredwa kuwonjezeredwa ku banja. Chimwemwe mu moyo wake, mosakayikira, chidzakhala chochuluka.