Chabwino, ndi mdima bwanji! Ndipo izi ndi zonse zomwe ndinamuchitira! Ndi kangati ndinakhala usiku wake, kumvetsera chikondi china chosasangalatsa. Nthawi zingapo, atasiya ntchito, anathamangira kwa iye, pamene anali ndi vuto kusukulu. Nthawi zingati ndinandiuza momwe ndingatulukemo pa zovuta, zikuwoneka, kukangana kosaneneka ndi anzanga! Zinkawoneka kwa ine kuti izo zidzakhala choncho kwanthawizonse - mwana wanga wamkazi akanakhoza kugawana nawo ululu wake, ndipo ine, monga wamkulu wanzeru, ndingamutsogolere iye kupyola mu moyo. Izo sizinagwire ntchito. Kwa nthawi yoyamba mu moyo wanga mwana wanga sanafunse, iye anachita popanda malangizo anga. Pamapeto pake, mimba. Ndipo izi ziri mu zaka 15! Ndinadandaula ndi ziganizo - kodi izi zachitika liti? - mpaka anapeza zolemba za mwana wake wamkazi.
Zinsinsi za mwana wamkazi
"Oktoba 11. Vladik anandipatsa maluwa lero, ndizodabwitsa, chifukwa chikanakhala choncho? Amakonda kwambiri usikuuno, ndikumva chisoni, akuti adzatengedwera kunkhondo chaka chino, ndipo adakali namwali .. Iye amandikakamiza kuti ayese - sakufuna kukhala woyera "Ndimakonda Vlad, ndimamukonda kwambiri kuposa wina aliyense, komanso kuti ndiyenera kumwa mowa kapena vinyo kuti ndikhale wolimba mtima komanso ndikupita patsogolo," ndinawerenga ndipo sindinakhulupirire maso anga . Ndipo uyu ndi mwana wanga wamkazi! Wokongola, wokongola, wonyada wa sukulu, ndi kunena, monga wotsiriza ... Ndipo chifukwa chiyani sindinapeze diary iyi kale? Ndinawerenga mbiri iyi miyezi iwiri yapitayo, palibe kutenga mimba! Ndipo "kumwa mowa" kungakhale pa ubongo!
Vladik ... Zonsezo ndizolakwa! Iwo anakumana miyezi isanu ndi umodzi yapitayo. Mwana wanga wamkazi adagwera naye mnyumbamo, akuponya mwangozi: "Ma, ndikomane nane, uyu ndiye bwenzi langa." Ndipo adanong'oneza chinsinsi m'makutu anga: "Mwa njira, amachokera ku banja labwino, choncho kondwerani."
Zinali zabwino kuti mukhale osangalala: mnyamatayo ankawoneka kuti ndi wabwino. Wakalamba kuposa zaka ziwiri, wodalirika, wowopsa. Ndanena nthawi zambiri kuti ndikufuna kulowa mu malonda. Kwenikweni, iye analephera kuchita izo, ndipo panalibibe ndalama zowonjezera nthambi yolipiridwa kuchokera kwa amayi ake, omwe ankagwira ntchito monga katswiri wa sayansi-sayansi. Anabereka mwana wake yekha. Pambuyo pa kulephera ku yunivesite zinaonekeratu kuti Vlad adayenera kulowa usilikali.
"October 27. Ur, ndinachita, ndinakhala mkazi!" Vlad anandiitanira kunyumba pamene amayi anga anali kuntchito ndipo ... "Kenaka tsamba lonselo linakongoletsedwa ndi mtundu wina wa monogram, mitima ndi maluwa. Mulungu wanga, iye ndi wopusa ngati ine! Iye amaganiza kuti ndi wamkulu, koma makamaka mwana ... "Kunena zoona, kunandipweteka, sindinamvetse zomwe asungwana amapeza pazogonana, koma Vlad ankakonda." Iye anati tsopano amandikonda kwambiri. "Sikoyenera - adzalira." Fuula! Inde, ndikadamenya iye chifukwa cha izo, ndipo ine mwa Vlad ndi banja labwino panthaŵi yomweyo! Kenaka anadza masamba opanda kanthu. Ndinatsala pang'ono kulemba diary pamene ndinapeza zolemba zina mwezi umodzi pambuyo pa chochitika chosaiŵalika: "Vlad anatengedwa kupita kunkhondo, ndine wosungulumwa kwambiri, ndikulakalaka akadzabweranso!" Ngakhale kuti sindikumvetsa ngati ndimamukonda kapena Ndimangokonda. "Ndizonyansa mumtima mwanga, ndikumva zowawa kwambiri: Ndili ndifooka ndipo ndikudwala." Ndipo pa chifukwa china, palibe mwezi uliwonse.
Patatha masiku atatu buku latsopano: "Mayesowa amasonyeza kuti ndili ndi pakati!" Ndine wopusa wotani - Vlad, atapereka zonse zoti apereke kondomu, ndiye ayi, iyeyo anakana! Ndiyenera kuchita chiyani tsopano? "
Ndipo kupyolera mu mndandanda umodzi womwewo: "Mawa ndipita kudzipereka kwa amayi anga." Ndikuopa kwambiri. " Iye "anasiya" tsiku lotsatira. Nditamva za mimba, ndinakwiya kwambiri moti ndinamukwapula. Ndiye wina .. Ndinamumenya pamasaya, osakhoza kuima. Chilichonse chinasokonezeka mutu wanga: mkwiyo ku Masha, udani wa Vlad, mantha a tsogolo la mwana wanga wamkazi ... Zinatha ndi Masha akudandaula kuti angafere pamsewu kuposa momwe angakhalire ndi ine, ndipo anasiya nyumba.
Kutulutsidwa mimba
Tsiku linadutsa. Mwanayo sanabwerere. Sindinapeze malo anga. Mtsikana wanga ali kuti? Kodi anapita kuti? Bwanji ngati iye atachita chinachake kwa iyemwini? Ndipo ngati iye anaphedwa? Kuchokera pamalingaliro awa miyendo yanga inaperekedwa. Kodi ndingamulole bwanji kuti apite? Ndinayamba kulira bwenzi lake. About Masha, palibe amene amadziwa chilichonse. Kenaka ganizoli linandikhudza: bwanji ngati amayi a Vlada amadziwa komwe Masha ali? Anali atalankhulana kwambiri, ndipo mwana wanga wamkazi analonjeza kuti adzamuchezera, "kotero kuti azakhali Marina sakanakhala okwiya kwambiri."
Ndimawotcha manja ndinaitana nambala ya Vlad. Thumba silinachotsedwe kwa nthawi yaitali. Potsirizira pake, kumapeto ena a waya, kukayikira "Moni" kumveka.
- Moni, Marina Alexeevna. Uyu ndi Victoria, Masha Masha.
"Amayi, ndi ine," mawu omwe adalandirayo anandiyankha patapita kanthawi kochepa. - Marina Alekseevna kuntchito.
- Masha? Mukuchita chiyani kumeneko?
- Ndine wamoyo. Amayi a Vlada anandilola ...
- Masha! Mphuno wanga unali wouma ndi chisangalalo. Sindinkadziwa kuti mwana wanga wamkazi anali ndi moyo wosangalala. - Mwana wamkazi, tikufunika kulankhula. Chonde bwerani kwanu! Ine ndikudandaula kwambiri za inu ...
Mashka anadabwa, koma atangomva mphindi zingapo anati:
- Ndizo zabwino. Ndidzabwera.
Patapita ola limodzi tinali titakhala ku khitchini.
- Chabwino, dziko? - Ndinapereka mwana wanga kapu ya tiyi.
"Dziko ..." adayankha mosadziwika.
- Mukuchedwa chiyani?
"Sindikukumbukira, masabata atatu, ndikuganiza."
"Kodi mudali ndi dokotala?"
"Osati ..."
- Nanga ukuyembekezera chiyani ?! - anali atasokonezeka, anali, ine, koma nthawi yomweyo ndinakhala ndekha. "Masha, sindikuimba mlandu pa zomwe zinachitika." Koma iwe uli ndi pakati pa kupusa, mwa kusadziwa. Chonde musachite chilichonse chopusa. - Ndinapuma ndikunena mwamphamvu kuti: - Ndikofunika kuti tichotse mimba. Apo ayi, mudzawononga moyo wanu wonse. Mudzakhalabe ndi ana ...
Masha anali chete. Ndipo kachiwiri ndinayamba kukhumudwa ndi maganizo:
"Mukuganizabe!" Ndikukulamulirani, kodi mumamva? Kuchotsa mimba!
Ananena mofatsa koma molimba mtima kuti:
"Sindidzakulolani kuti muphe mwana wanga." Lekani kulamula. - Mulungu wanga, ndife anthu akuluakulu! Ndipo ndani angamuukitse mwana wanu, inu munaganiza? Mwa njira, sizikudziwika panobe, kaya zikhale zathanzi - iwe akadali mwana! Kodi mukufuna kupita ndi zochepa, kenako ndi wopondereza, pamene anzanu akusukulu amachoka mu diski ndikupita ku koleji?
Kuyankhulanso kunathera phokoso. Masoka adayambanso chitseko ndikuchoka. Mwamwayi nthawi ino ndimadziwa komwe ndingayang'anire.
Bwererani kwanu!
Tsiku lotsatira mayi anga anawatcha Vlad ndipo anayamba kundiuza kuti Masha akuchita zabwino. Eya, ndi kumene mphepo ikuwomba! Amafuna zidzukulu zake!
- Ndinadabwa pamene Masha adalonjeza zonse. Ndikuganiza kuti palinso vuto langa - silinasamalire Vlad, sanalongosole. Koma ngati zidachitika, abwerere. Tidakali aang'ono, tidzathandiza!
- Inde ndinu wopenga! Iwo okha adakali ana! Kodi ana angabereke bwanji ndikulerera ana?
Marina Alexeevna adagwedeza mu chubu, adagwirizana nane ndipo ... adayamba kundiuza kuti ndibwino kubereka kusiyana ndi kusokoneza mimba. Kukambitsirana kunathera ndi mawu okwera. Ndinamufunsa Masha kuti:
"Masha, palibe nthawi yambiri yotsala!" Mukamaliza kusankha, zidzakhala mochedwa kwambiri. Mawa timapita kwa dokotala!
Koma mwana wake wamkazi adakakamiza kunena kuti ndi tchimo lochotsa mimba . Ndipo kodi iye anapeza kuti chikhulupiliro choterocho? Nkhaniyi inatha chifukwa chakuti Masha sanafike pa foni, ndipo amayi a Vlad anandiuza nkhani zochepa zokhudza mwana wake wamkazi: "Toxicosis ... Hemoglobin ndi yachilendo ... Inde, amapita kusukulu, koma n'zovuta kukhala m'kalasi ... Ayi, mphunzitsi komabe sakudziwa kalikonse ... "Masha, malinga ndi kuwerengera kwanga, anali kale mwezi wachinayi woyembekezera. Kunali kochedwa kwambiri kuti ndiumirire kuchotsa mimba. Koma sindinathe kudziyanjanitsa ndi maonekedwe a mwana uyu. Kukhala wanga wazaka 38 anakhala agogo! Ndinasiya ntchito (kapena, m'malo mwake, ndinapeza zina) kuti ndikoke mdzukulu wanga ?! Chabwino, ayi! Iye akufuna, amulole iye abereke! Mlamu ake abwino amathandiza.
Ndiyeno tsiku lina ndinali ndi loto loopsya, ngati kuti ndikupita ku chipinda cha Mashka, ndipo iye sali kumeneko, koma amangoti akumva kuti akulira. Ndimamutcha, ndimayang'ana mu chipinda, pansi pa bedi - ayi. Ndipo kulira kukukulirakulira, tearier ... Ine ndimathamanga kuzungulira nyumba mpaka potsiriza ine ndimamupeza iye pa khonde. Iye akukhala pa ngodya: yaing'ono, yowopsya, akuwombera kuchokera ku chimfine, ndi kunditengera ine mwana wamphepete. Ndinadzuka ndi thukuta lozizira. Amangoyembekezera mwachidule m'mawa, otchedwa:
- Mwana wamkazi, uyu ndi amayi anga, - Sindinagwirenso ntchito. - Bwerani! Mwanjira ina tidzakweza ...