Masiku ano maganizo okhudzidwa ndi aploniki amakhala chinthu chochititsa manyazi kwambiri, chochititsa manyazi, kuchitira umboni kuti mulibe vutoli. Zabwino - zosakhalitsa, pazovuta - zosachiritsika. Ngati simukugona ndi wina aliyense, ndiye kuti palibe amene akufuna. Mwina simuli womenya nkhondo ndipo simungathe kupeza zomwe mukufuna. Ziri zoyipa: osati munthu wonyansa chabe, komanso wopusa, pokhala ndi ubale ndi mwamuna mu maloto okoma ...
Ndili ndi zaka khumi ndi zinayi ndinayamba kukonda ndi wotchuka wotchuka. Maganizo a platonic anakhala pafupifupi khumi ndi zisanu ndi zitatu: ali ndi zaka pamene anzanga akusukulu anali atakhala kale ndi mimba ndikuyembekeza kukwatira, ine ndikulembabe ndakatulo mu bukhu loperekedwa kwa "kalonga wokongola." Ndipo ngati anzanga odziwa zachiwerewere amadziwa za izi, akanandipatsa chisamaliro chosasangalatsa ndipo anandipatsa chizindikiro cha wotayika wosatha ...
Pambuyo pake, maukwati awo oyambirira anaphwanyidwa, ochepa chabe a Loliths achikulire adatembenuka zaka zambiri kuti azikhala ndi mabanja olemekezeka. Koma mchere wa mbiriyakale suli mu izi, koma ponena kuti nthawi zonse ndimalemba ndakatulo, nthano ndi zolemba polemekeza, ndinachokera ku ndakatulo yachikondi-lyric, kukonda magazi, ndikukhala mlembi wokhala ndi dzanja labwino. Mayi wanga, kapena bambo anga, kapena aphunzitsi anga sankatha kuchita zomwe ndinachita pofuna kukonda zinthu zachinsinsi za platonic - kuti andiphunzitse kuti ndizigwira ntchito ndekha. Chifukwa chakumverera kosaoneka ndi zopusa, kundikakamiza kuti ndiyendetsedwe ndi dzanja tsiku ndi tsiku, monga maola, ndinalembapo, ndinapita ku studio zamaphunziro, ndinapeza ntchito m'magazini, ndinapita ku koleji.
Sindikukumbukira zaka zingati zomwe ndinalumbirira ndekha kuti, nditakula, sindidzaseka chikondi ichi chopanda chifundo, koma ndasunga mawu anga. Pakuti ndikudziwa motsimikiza kuti kulemba kwanga "I" kunabadwa kuchokera. Mofananamo ndi "I" wa ndakatulo Petrarch, yemwe chikondi chake chosakondwera kwa Lasha yemwe anakwatira anabereka ana a nyamakazi, anabweretsa ku gawo lotsatirali mabuku onse a Chibadwidwe. Kusiyana kokha ndiko kuti, mosiyana ndi ine, Petrarch sankadziwa za kugonjetsa - kusintha kwa mphamvu za kugonana kukhala chinthu cholenga kapena chinthu china, "chamtengo wapatali." Kwa iwo omwe sadziwa zenizeni zolingalira, ine ndikuwonjezera mfundo zina zingapo. Pamene ndinalandira ku sukulu ya zisudzo ndinakwiya chifukwa chakuti munthu wanga wokonda filimu anaphunziranso kumeneko. Pambuyo pake, nditamufunsa, ndinabweretsa nkhaniyo ku nyuzipepala - ndipo ndinapeza malo ogwira ntchito. Ngakhale patapita nthawi, ndinalemba zokhumba zanga zapachikazi, zomwe zinkasinthidwa ndi filimuyo, yomwe inayamba kukhala yoyamba kumagwira ntchito zanga ... Iyi ndi mbiri yakale yosintha chikondi chosapambana mu ntchito yabwino. Ndipo ngati ndi choncho, kodi mungatchule kuti chikondi sichinapambane?
Pamene chikondi chachikondi (chifukwa cha kusowa kwachidziwitso pakati pachinsinsi cha platonic chikondi) sichitenga nthawi ndi mphamvu, nthawi zambiri mumathera onse kukhala oyenerera chikondi - kudzikonzekera nokha, kusuntha. Ndikudziwa mtsikana yemwe, polakalaka kuyandikira nkhani ya Platon, amadziwa ntchito yatsopano ndikufika pamwambapo. Ndipo penapake pamsewu, chilakolako chake chogonjetsedwa chinasinthidwa ndi chilakolako cha thupi - kwa munthu wina ... Koma zonse zomwe adazichita zinakhalabe ndi iye.
Amangokongola ngongole kwa iye ngati kuli koyenera, ndi iye kuti nthawi zonse amasintha mapulojekiti oopsa, ndi iye amene amalankhula "mtima ndi mtima" m'khitchini ndi kuvina nthawi zonse zolimbitsa (mwamuna wake sakonda kuvina). Kuchokera pazimenezi, nthawi zambiri amayi amawathandiza kudya komanso kuyamikira: kuyamikira, kukondweretsa, kudzimva kuti ndinu olandiridwa (zonse zomwe posakhalitsa zimasiya kuletsa amuna). Ndipo, pozindikira kuti, kusintha amishonale aatali kwambiri, mboni amakhalabe wokhulupirika ku chikondi chimodzi cha platonic, amakhalanso wokhutira ndi njirayi - mphunzitsi wa mkazi wokongola ndi chizindikiro "kuwala". Pano inu ndi chikondi, ndi ubale, ndi bizinesi, ndi kunjenjemera kwa moyo, ndipo chikumbumtima chimamveka bwino, ndipo kugonana kumbali yomwe mungagwirizane nayo palibe wina amene amalepheretsa. Ndipo chinthu chopusa kwambiri chimene chingachitidwe pafupi ndi tsiku lachiyanjano ndi kugona ndi wina ndi mnzake. Pa zabwino kwambiri, chirichonse chidzatsala monga momwe ziliri, poipa kwambiri - kong'onoting'ono, kolimbikitsa "mwinamwake" kamene kalipo mu mawonekedwe a chithunzi chokongola, chidzasanduka "chonyansa" osati chonchi, chotsimikiziridwa ndi chenicheni ndi choipa.
Ndipo pomaliza - wina platonic "kuphatikiza". M'chaka cha makumi atatu cha moyo wanga, mwadzidzidzi ndinazindikira kuti ndimagonjetsedwa kwathunthu ndi amuna omwe sindingathe kukhala osangalala nawo. M'malo mwake, thupi langa, malingaliro asanu ndi awiri ndi zongopeka zimakondwera pakuwona zolengedwa zaumunthu zomwe ziri zosayenera kuti munthu akhale ndi moyo wosangalala pamodzi: wochepa, wameta tsitsi, wosadziwika, wotsutsa, wolakalaka (monga chikondi changa choyamba cha filimu!).
Poyamba ndinasiya kusonkhana, komabe sindimakonda. Anakhalabe kunyumba ndi kuwonera TV ... Apa ndi pamene chikondi cha filimu kwa ojambula mafilimu omwe anayesedwa zaka zachinyamata chidawathandiza. N'zosavuta kukondana ndi osewera! Ngakhale atayimba fano la munthu wamkulu, wachifundo, wosavuta komanso womveka omwe simukumukonda - makampani onse a filimu, wojambula zithunzi, wojambula zithunzi, wotsogolera akugwira ntchito kuti akuthandizeni. Poyamba zinali ngati masewera: koma kodi ndingasinthe zomwe ndimakonda ndikuziyika pa wina? Ndapezeka, ndingathe, ngati "mnyamata wabwino" akusewera, mwa Brendan Fraser ...
Mwa njira , bwenzi langa lapamtima limati mwamuna wanga ali ngati iye. Sindikuganiza choncho. Koma izi, ndithudi, zoyenera kuphunzira. Zimapezeka kuti ngati ndili ndi zaka khumi ndi zinai ndikukondana ndi Kalyagin, kodi nthawi zonse ndimakonda amuna ochepa, olemera? Ndipo ngati mayi wanzeru akufuna kuphunzitsa mwana wake kuti achite zomwe mwamuna wake ali nazo, kodi awonetse mafilimu ake ndi Russell Crow ndi Kevin Costner kuyambira ali aang'ono?
Mulimonsemo, ndichedwa kwambiri kuti ndiyang'ane chiphunzitso ichi kuchokera pa zomwe ndikukumana nazo. Koma ngati ndili ndi mwana wamkazi, ndithudi ndikupitirizabe nkhaniyi.