Kodi ndingatani ndi chikondi? Mulungu wanga! Ndili kangati ndakufuulira Inu mawu awa! Momwemo mtima wanga unang'ambika mu zidutswa chikwi! Ndilimbani kangati milomo yanga kuti ndisamve pamene ndimva mau ake. Ndipo moyo wanga unali kukulira ndi ululu. Ndipo zonsezi zikupitirira mpaka lero. Ndipo sindikudziwa choti ndichite ndi chikondi chopanda chikondi, chimene tsiku ndi tsiku ndimakondwera nazo.
Pamene ndinangokhala ndi pakati, ndinamuuza zonse, ndikuyankha, ndithudi, ndinamva, muyezo: "Kuchotsa mimba." Ayi, sindinachite, ndinatulutsa mwana wanga, pakati pa nthawi yomwe ndinapeza kuti tidzakhala ndi mtsikana ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimayankhula naye, nthawi yomweyo ndimaganiza za dzina lake - Camilla, ndinayimba nyimbo zake, ndinamubaya pamsasa wanga mimba, ndinamuuza nkhani zabodza, ndimamukonda, ndipo tsopano ndikumuyamikira. Monga, ndithudi, iye. Pakali pano, izi sizimamulepheretsa kukhala pena paliponse, koma osati ndi ife. Chimene chikuchitika mumutu wake, sindikudziwa, sindikumvetsa, ndipo ndikuchokera misoziyi. Ndikudziwa chikondi chimene sichikwanitsa, koma sindikudziwa choti nkuchita nazo. Chochita muzochitika zoterezi, choti uchite.
Iye ndi wachikondi, wabwino, wofatsa, iye sanandidziwuzepo mawu achipongwe, kupatula mu fuse - nthawi zingapo. Koma pambuyo pa ubale ndi iye mumaganizira kwambiri momwe mungagulire valerian. Chifukwa sanena "inde" kapena "ayi".
Ndikuyamba kuganiza za ine ndekha, za iye, za ubale wathu, zomwe zimatanthauza kwa iye. Ndipo kawirikawiri mawu oti "chikondi chosadziŵika" amamveka mumalingaliro. Kodi ndi zoonadi? Mukuyamba kulingalira kuti ali kwinakwake ndi wina, ndipo muli pano, nokha, muli ndi mwana m'manja mwake. Ndipo ndinu mayi wosakwatira. Ngakhale ndikufuna kuganiza kuti izi siziri choncho.
Iwe wopusa! Ine ndikudziuza ndekha. Ikani! Yang'anani pozungulira! Zokwanira kukhala ndi maloto kuti tsiku lina adzakumbukira, adzabwera kwa inu, ndipo inu nonse mudzakhala pamodzi, ndipo zonse zidzakhala zabwino, ndipo aliyense adzasangalala. Ayi! Izi siziri choncho! Mapeto a chikondi chanu abwera! Sikuliponso! Iye amangokudyetsani inu kadzutsa. Awerengeni! Zaka zinayi zapita. Ndipo inu simunabwere palimodzi. Kodi izi sizimakuuzani chilichonse?
Pambuyo phokoso lamkati lamkati, ngakhale zala zimayamba kunjenjemera. Ndipo dziko lapansi pang'onopang'ono likuchoka pansi pa mapazi. Ndipo, ngati panalibe mwana, ndani amadziwa zomwe zingandichitikire tsopano ...
Inde, sindinaganizire chikondi, komanso choti ndichite nawo, sindinasankhepo. Ndikudziwa chinthu chimodzi. Ndili ndi enchantress yabwino kwambiri, mwana wanga wamkazi, chuma changa, yemwe sadziwa kanthu kwake, komanso momwe amayi ake anavutikira kumayambiriro kwa moyo wake. Ndipo sakusamala choti achite ndi chikondi chopanda chikondi. Chinthu chachikulu ndi chakuti mayi anga azikhala kumeneko kuti ampsompsone, amudyetse, ndiwotcheke zovala zake. Chinthu chachikulu chomwe amayi anga anali. Ndiyang'ana pa iye, ndipo ngakhale kuti ali ngati bambo anga, mtima wanga walangidwa, ndipo ndikutero. Imani! Lekani kulira! Lekani kusunga chikondi chanu chosadziwika! Palibe chochita! Tiyenera kukhala ndi moyo! Amayi anga amanena chinthu chomwecho.
Koma, Mulungu ndiye woweruza wake. Musadandaule kwambiri, simukuyenera kumuimba mlandu, ngati ali wofooka kwambiri kuti sangathe kutenga udindo kwa anthu omwe adawameta, ndiye kuti zidzakhala zovuta kuti akhale m'dziko lino, ndipo tsopano chinthu chofunika kwambiri ndikusamalira mwana wanga wamng'ono. Ndidzachita chilichonse kuti ndikhale wosangalala, komanso kuti sadzapulumuka zomwe ndakumana nazo, ndipo chifukwa cha izi ndikofunikira kuwuka kuchokera pamaondo anga ndikupitirirabe - popanda chiwonongeko. Nthawi idzadutsa, zilonda zidzachiritsa, mwana wanga adzakula, ndipo ndidzakhala wosangalala - ndi bambo wa mwana wanga kapena ndi wina - moyo uwonetsere.