- Ndipo ine? Ndipo Mike? Musatichoke ife! Mungachite bwanji izi? "Siyani!" - Mwamuna uja anandimenya ndikutsegula chitseko. Kenaka ndinapeza kuti amakhala ndi mzimayi wamng'ono yemwe amagwira ntchito ku sitolo yapafupi. Kuwombera kunali kosayembekezereka. Ndinayamba kuvutika maganizo ndipo ndinasiyiratu kuona chilichonse chozungulira. Mike anali kulira, kukoka:
- Amayi, Amayi, dzuka! Ndikuwopa pamene muli choncho ...
"Ndi chiyani icho?" Ine ndinayankhula mu mawu opanda chidwi kwa mawu ake.
Kodi pali moyo uliwonse? Bwanji, ngati iwe waponyedwa, ngati chinthu chovutitsa? Palibe amene angapereke thandizo, sangamvetse. Kwa chiyani? Ndinayenda muchitetezo chobisika ndikumva ululu, ndipo pokhapokha pamene amayi anga anakhazikika, anasamuka. "Muli ndi vuto lalikulu kwa Amaya," adatero. - Ndinaganiza zokulavulira moyo wanga, uwu ndiwo ntchito yanu, koma muli ndi udindo pa tsogolo la mtsikanayo. Musaiwale za izo. Mwana wanu wamkazi angawonongeke. " Ndipo ine ndinadzuka ^
Mikkin anayang'ana pozungulira njoka yake yamitengo ndi zidendene za holey, anakumbukira teyi ndi mkate umene anaika pamaso pa mwana wake m'malo mwa kudya, ndipo adachita mantha ndi kudzikonda kwake! Ndikadakhala bwanji ndikulakalaka kuiwala za mwana wanga wamkazi! Kuchokera kwa mwamuna wanga kuli kovuta kwa ine, koma kwa mwana wanga wamkazi, kuperekedwa kwa atate wanga kumandichititsa mantha. Ndikanatha bwanji kuona chisoni chake? Ndipo moyo unasintha mosavuta. Ngati dzulo sindinapeze mphamvu kuti ndipite kuntchito, tsopano ndayamba mwakhama kupeza ndalama. "Mwana wanga wamkazi amafunikira zambiri," iye anadzibwereza yekha ngati kuti anali spell. - Mayechka adzakhala ndi zabwino zonse! Mwamuna wakale adzadabwa kuti ndinatha kukula mwana wanga yekha, kumupatsa maphunziro ndikumuika pamapazi ake.
Pambuyo pa chisudzulo, chaka chinadutsa. Mike anali khumi ndi zisanu ndi chimodzi, ndipo iye ankafunikira kwambiri. Tsopano ndikudziwa kuti kukhumudwa kwanga konse ndi changu changa cholimbika pa ntchito zandichititsa manyazi mwana wanga wa chinthu chachikulu - chidwi changa, nkhawa ndi chikondi. Poyamba sindinazindikire mwana wanga, kenako ndinakhala ndi nthawi yokwanira yolimbana ndi mavuto ake. Inde, ndapeza zambiri. Koma sindikudziwa kuti ntchito yanga idzapangitsa kuti ine ndi Maikin tikhale bata mtsogolo.
Chimene chinali kuchitika nthawi zonse ndi mwana wanga wamkazi , sindinkadziwa. Ndikafika kunyumba, Mike, monga lamulo, anali atagona kale, ndipo nthawizina sindinkavutika kuti ndiyang'ane m'chipinda chake. Ndi momwe ife tinakhalira. Ine ndinalima ndipo mwana wanga wamkazi anali kuphunzira, ndipo sindikudziwa chomwe chikanakhala chowopsya ngati ine sindikanati ^ ndisokoneze mwendo wanga tsiku lina. N'zosadabwitsa kuti akunena kuti sipadzakhalanso chimwemwe, koma tsoka lidzawathandiza. Ndinkachita chidwi kwambiri ndikuona moyo wa mwana wanga wamkazi, ndipo zomwe ndinaziona zisanachitike zinali zoopsa kwambiri. Ndinazindikira kuti Mike anali woonda kwambiri, ndipo anali ndi nkhawa kwambiri.
- Mwanawe, umva bwino? Amaya adasokoneza mapewa ake. Koma koposa zonse ndinadabwa ndi yankho lake:
"Simukusamala?"
"Maya!" Kodi mumalankhula bwanji ndi ine? - Wokwiya. Anandiuza mmene mwamuna wake ankakhalira:
- Chokani ...
Ndinayang'anitsitsa mwana wanga wamkazi. Chinachake chachilendo chinali kuchitika kwa iye. Amaya amadya kwambiri, koma pa chifukwa china ankachita manyazi ndi izi. Ndinamuika mbale yake patsogolo pake ndi kuwaza ndi mbatata, ndipo adakonza foloko mwamtundu:
- Pali kusakayika. Ndine wolemera kwambiri.
"Mudzadzipeleka nokha," ndinali ndi nkhawa. - Idyani.
Anakankhira pambali mbaleyo, koma mwanjira ina ndinazindikira kuti amadya mwakachetechete ndi mbatata yomweyo. "Ndi bwino," adatsimikiziranso yekha. "Mwanayo akukula, thupi limasowa mafuta owonjezera." Koma patapita tsiku, Maikin ankalakalaka kwambiri.
Ndapeza mwana wanga wamkazi, yemwe ankakankhira choko m'kamwa mwake ndi ochepa.
- Chabwino, muli ndi zakudya! Osakhala wopusa, Mike. Idyani bwino, ndipo simudye chakudya chamasana kapena chakudya chamadzulo. Mwana wanga wamkazi anandiyang'ana mokwiya ndipo anadandaula kuti: "Si ntchito yanu."
"Kodi izi zikutanthauza chiyani?" Ndani adakuwuzani kuti si bizinesi yanga? - Ndinakwiya, ndipo mwana wanga wamkazi anayankha molakwika kuti:
"Ndikulakalaka mutachira kale ndikupita kukagwira ntchito."
- O Mulungu wanga! Mike! Kodi ndikukusokonezani kwambiri ?! - Ndinakhumudwa.
- Inu? Iye anafuula. - Inde, simundizindikira! Ziri ngati sindiri. Kodi mwatayika kwinakwake kwa masiku, ndipo tsopano mwaganiza kufunsa mafunso?
Sindingathe kudziletsa ndekha:
- Ndatayika ?! Ndikugwira ntchito mwakhama kuti mukhale ndi zonse zomwe mukusowa! Iye anaphimba makutu ake ndi manja ake ndipo anathamangira chifukwa china osati ku chipinda chake, koma kuchimbudzi. Ndinamva phokoso la kusanza ndipo ndinayamba kuda nkhawa. Kodi Mike akubisa chinachake kwa ine?
Ndinabwerera kuntchito, koma nkhaŵa kwa mwana wanga wamkazi anakhazikika mumsamba ndipo sanasiye. Pa nthawi yomweyi zinthu zodabwitsa zikuchitika kunyumba. Madzulo ndinabweretsa kunyumba chakudya cha sabata: kilogalamu ya soseji yabwino, mapepala angapo a pelmeni, tchizi, kirimu wowawasa, mkaka, masamba, zipatso, maswiti, ndipo tsiku lotsatira firijiyo inalibe kanthu. "Maya, kodi chakudyacho chinapita kuti?"
"Anzanga anabwera kwa ine ..." anayankha mwana wanga wamkazi. Ine sindinamukhulupirire iye, chifukwa ine ndimadziwa kuti Mikey analibe abwenzi. Nditamuuza za izi, adadzuka:
- Ndipo ndinapempha kuti anditumize ku sukulu komwe Lyusya akuphunzira!
Lusia ndi mzanga wakale wa Maya, koma anapita ku sukulu yofooka, ndipo ndinali ndi cholinga chotengera mwana wanga wamkazi ku sukulu yapamwamba yophunzitsa.
- Pezani chinenero chimodzi ndi anyamata ku sukulu yatsopano, - adalangizidwe, koma Mike anandiyang'ana mokwiya. Ndinaganiza kuti moyo wa mwanayo si bwino. Mike anali kutaya thupi, koma ankadya zambiri komanso nthawi zambiri. Ndipo kusanza uku ... Mwadzidzidzi kuganiza koopsa kunandidabwitsa ine. Kodi Mike ali ndi pakati? Chilakolako, kusanza ...
- Mwana wamkazi, uli liti pamene utatha nthawi? Iye anafunsa kamodzi. Anaganiza kuti, amamenya mapewa ake:
"Sindikukumbukira ..."
Sindinayese kukoka mwana wanga kwa mayi wamayi . Ndinagula phukusi la zopukutira zaukhondo, ndikuika mwana wanga patebulo la pambali. Patatha milungu iwiri ndinayang'ana. Chilichonse chiri m'malo. Zoterezi zatsimikiziridwa! Ndinkachita mantha, koma madzulo ndinaganiza zokambirana kwambiri ndi mwana wanga wamkazi. Iye anakankhira khomo la chipinda chake ndipo anamudodometsa iye. Mike anakhala pabedi ndi mano ake ndipo adang'amba zidutswa za ndodo zotsekemera. Pafupi ndikuika mabokosi opanda kanthu ogulitsidwa a yogurt. Zigawo zisanu ndi zitatu kapena khumi.
- Majechka ... - Ndinasokonezeka kwambiri moti ndinatsala pang'ono kukhumudwa, chifukwa chithunzi sichinali cha mtima wokomoka.
Mwana wanga wamkazi anawombera, amanjenjemera mopanda mantha.
- M'pofunika kugogoda! Kapena sanakuphunzitseni ?! Ndinayamba kulira. Iye anakhala pafupi ndi iye.
"Ndikuona zomwe zikukuchitikirani!" Kodi simukufuna kugawana nane?
"Ine ndinakumbukira chinachake mochedwa ..." mwanayo anayankha molakwika, ndipo, akugwada, anathamangira ku chimbudzi.
"Mulungu ..." Ndinamanong'oneza bondo pamene anasiya kusambira. "Kodi uli ndi pakati?" - anafunsa mosamala pamene Maya, atatopa ndi kusanza kwa nthawi yaitali, atagona mokwanira pa kama.
"Ndi lingaliro lotani!" Iwe ndi wopenga! Iye anawombera.
"Usamaname," adatero mwakachetechete. - Mulibe mwezi uliwonse.
- Mwinamwake. Koma mwamuna, nayenso, ayi!
"Koma zimakupangitsa iwe kudwala ..."
"Ndikudwala moyo wonyansa!" Misozi inachoka m'maso mwake.
"Kodi munganene bwanji, Maya?" - Ndinkachita mantha. "Muli ndi chilichonse!" Inu muli ndi chiyembekezo chotero ... Iye anandisokoneza ine ndi funso:
- Kodi mukufuna kudziwa chimene chimandisangalatsa? Chakudya! Ndicho!
"Chakudya?" - sindikumvetsa.
-Ndifuna kudya nthawi zonse! - Maya analankhula mofulumira, ngati kuti akufulumira kutsanulira pa ine zonse zomwe adabisala kwa nthawi yayitali. - Ndikufuna kudya nthawi zonse ndi kulikonse. Ndine wokondwa pokhapokha ndikadya, ndiyeno ... Ndiye ndimayamba kusokonezeka, matumbo amatha, ndipo ndikufuna kudya kachiwiri ...
Iye analankhula, ndipo mu ubongo wanga mau abwino akuti "bulimia" anali atayang'ana kale . Ndinayenera kuwona imfa ya matendawa, mkazi wathu. Ine ndinali mtsikana ndiye. Pafupi ndi ife tinakhala m'banja lokha: mwamuna, mkazi, mwana. Mkaziyo anali wochepa thupi, koma chakudya chake chodabwitsa chinali chodabwitsa ku dziko lonselo. Anadya zonse komanso nthawi zambiri. Koma ndinauzidwa za kuzunzika koopsa kwa kusanza kumene kunamuzunza. Anamwalira chifukwa cha kutopa. Sizinali imfa yomwe inamuvutitsa iye panthawiyo - chifukwa chake ... "Kodi n'zotheka kufa ndi kudya? Ndipo ndi matenda otani omwe - pamene mumadya kwambiri, mumakumbutsa mafupawo? "- Ndinadabwa ndiye.
Mike anandiuza, ndipo ndinkamva kuti miyendo yanga imasokonezeka ndi mantha. Usiku sanagone. Ndipo musanasankhe zoyenera kuchita, ndinayang'ana pa intaneti kuti mudziwe za bulimia. Webusaiti Yadziko Lonse inachititsa mantha kwambiri moti ndinasiya mtendere. Maganizo amodzi amagogoda mu ubongo: mofulumira, mofulumira, mofulumira ... Mulungu asaletse ... Ndipo ndinakumbukira mnzanga wakufayo. Tsopano ndinayamba kumvetsa izi zopanda nzeru chifukwa cha msinkhu wachisokonezo, chomwe chinasokoneza moyo wa Mikey. Ndikofunika kutsimikizira mwanayo kuti ndizomveka kulimbana kuti agonjetse matendawa.
"Kodi ndi matenda?" Koma anthu onse amadya ...
- Koma osasanza onse atadya, si onse akuvutika ndi njala ya nyama.
- Nchifukwa chiyani matendawa akuchitika? Anamufunsa mwana wake wamkazi, ndipo ine ndinamenyera.
- Madokotala samadziwa zomwe zimayambitsa bulimia. Koma adaphunzira kulimbana ndi matendawa mwangwiro. Ndinawerenga ntchito ya sayansi ya munthu wina wodalirika wamaganizo ... Mike adalumphira ndikufuula:
- Psychiatrist? Ayi, sindipita kwa wodwala zamaganizo! Ine ndiri mu malingaliro anga!
O, ndipo zinali zovuta kumupangitsa mwanayo kupita kwa dokotala! Zinatenga zoposa mwezi, ndipo panthawiyi Mike sanasinthe makhalidwe ake. Iye sadadye zambiri pamaso panga, koma kenako ndinatulutsa chipinda cha wrappers kuchokera ku chokoleti, mabisiki ndi maswiti. Mwana wanga sanandimvere ine. Mayi anga anandithandiza.
- Yesetsani kugulira dzanja la mwanayo!
"Ayi, sindidzasiya," ndinadziuza ndekha, ndipo madzulo onse ndinapitiriza kukopa mwana wanga kupita kukawona madokotala.
Posakhalitsa zinawonekeratu kuti mumzinda mwathu muli katswiri wina yekha yemwe adayamba kuchita ndi bulimia. Ndinamvetsetsa kuti chithandizocho chidzakhala chotalika komanso chovuta. Mike anagonjetsa mosayembekezereka. Nthawi ina, kusanza kunamulepheretsa kuti pamene adatuluka m'nyumbamo, ankanong'oneza mawu amodzi okha: "Ndikuvomereza ..." Sindikunena kuti zinakhala zosavuta. Koma ine ndi Mika sitinachepetse manja athu, chifukwa tawona bwino chiyembekezo chomwe chili pamodzi ndi mavuto.
- Ndidzazunzidwa ndi kusanza koopsa?
"Inde, ndi dzuwa langa." Ndipo maganizo anu adzakhala okondwa, ndipo abwenzi adzakhala pafupi ndi inu ...
Sindinanene mawu opanda kanthu. Ndasamukira Mike ku sukulu kumene Lyusya anaphunzira. Madokotala analimbikitsa kuti pakhale chitonthozo chachikulu cha maganizo, ndipo ndinadziwa kuti kulankhulana ndi Lyusya kungathandize Maya. Ndipo ndinayenera kutsimikizira mwana wanga kuti kwa ine palibe wina ndipo palibe chofunika kuposa iye.
"Ine ndiri ndi iwe, wokondedwa, ine ndikuthandizani inu mu chirichonse, wokondedwa," Mike akubwereza tsiku ndi tsiku ngati spell.
Ndipo tsiku lililonse ndimayesera kumuwonetsa chikondi changa . Pang'onopang'ono, ubale wathu unayamba kusintha. Chaka chatha, ndipo ine ndi mwana wanga wamkazi timangoyamba kumene. Koma ngati poyamba nthawi zambiri Mike anali kuthamangira kuchimbudzi kuti akawononge chakudya, tsopano zigawenga zimachitika mochepa. M'mwezi watha, kawiri kakhala koipa. Ndipo tsopano amadya mosiyana - malinga ndi ndondomeko za madokotala. China chinakhala ndi moyo wake! Pamene, tsiku lina, kunyozetsa kosayembekezereka kunabwera kumtima kwake, iye anatembenuka, koma ananena mwamphamvu kuti:
"Ino ndi nthawi yomaliza, izi sizidzachitikanso."
Ndimakhulupirira ndipo ndimakhulupirira ndekha. Tidzabwezeretsa thanzi la Maikino. Ndipo posakhalitsa mwana wanga anabwera kuchokera ku ulendo ndipo anandiuza mosangalala kuti:
- Amayi, ndimakondana!
Pa nthawi yomweyi, ndinaganiza kuti mwana wanga ali ndi msambo wobwezeretsedwa, wosokonezeka ndi bulimia.
- Uthenga wabwino!
- Amayi, kodi tingamuitane Lamlungu pamadzulo? - anafunsa mtsikana wanga, ndipo ndinagwedeza.
Mike sakuopa kuti azikhala patebulo ndikudya pamaso pa alendo. Adzakhala wathanzi. Ndipo wokondwa ...